A loved one waiting for a bus
If you believe that you have a psychological imbalance that is causing your suicidal ideations, then I recommend that you seek medical help for this imbalance rather than merely reacting to it by taking an action you may regret. Certainly, before the age of 23 it is often quite difficult to obtain a coherent perspective on the world from which to make the important decision to end one’s life.
While I may counsel people about means to terminate life and even inform them of the most efficient means of achieving this, I am strongly opposed to preying on the weak-minded or disabled who haven’t a grasp on their personal will sufficient to make an informed and mature decision on their own. Euthanasia (good death) is not coercive, nor is it merely concerned with the termination in question, providing also for the feasting on our kindred and the making kindred of the feast.
> I continuously want to kill myself. I have tried but have
> never been successful. I do not know what to do…
Most medical (physical and psychological) conditions have been addressed with at least symptomatically-ameliorative, if not remedying, treatment plans that will likely contain a combination of physical, dietary, and medicinal prescriptions.
If you do not feel that your needs are being met on the particular schedule you have been recommended, get additional opinions (consult whatever authorities you think are trustworthy) and experiment with alternatives. Research what is known about your condition, supplement your knowledge base so as to become more independent and able to make decisions without the need of people whom you may not know well. The internet is a valuable resource (with search engines, for example) to accomodate your needs in this regard. You can also seek out local reference librarians, as they will be of inestimable service.
It is important to evaluate the following criteria:
- How capable are you of making an informed decision that will affect the quality of your life?
- How reliable is your emotional resolve?
- Are you being driven to certain actions, or are you definitely choosing them with careful deliberation and resolved composure?
- How much deliberation time is reasonable for you?
